My bad...

So it seems that I have not posted anything for the past 3 months because I forgot my password AND username to get in here and post.  Obviously it is not until now that I took the time to sit down for an hour and figure it out.  So Ill be posting more now.  I am excited.  There have been many, many times I have wanted to but was hindered by my forgetfulness...my bad.  That's all I got for now.  Ill do more later...

listen to me, oh jacob...oh pride of Israel!

"listen to me oh house of jacob...

to whom would you liken Me,

to whom would you make me equal?

remember this and be assured

remember the former things long past

for I am God, and there is no other;

I am God is there is no one like Me...

who declares the end from the beginning

and from ancient times things which have not been done.

"My purpose will be established 

and I will accomplish all My good pleasure."

calling a bird of prey from the east,

the man of My purpose from a far country 

truly I have spoken; truly I will bring it to pass.

I have planned it, surely will I do it.

Listen to me! Listen to me! Listen to me!

you stubborn minded, who are far from righteousness!"

Isaiah 46

LISTEN TO ME!  what a plea...a plea, a begging of a holy, righteous God to a people who were His chosen people.  a people who were to carry His name and who were to live in His Lordship...or in knowledge and recognition of His Lordship (for He was their Lord whether they acknowledged Him or not)!  when they were not in accordance with what God had intended...His rebuke was, "because they did not listen..."  because they did not listen, battles lost.  because they did not listen, enemies increased.  because they did not listen, temple destroyed. because they did not listen, captivity to babylon...and so it goes.  

i am about to admit something that i am not proud of to say the least...i am not the best listener.  i pray that i have gotten better and believe that by God's grace i truly have.  better at listening to people without always getting my opinion or my story in. i hate it when people do it to me.  my hate increases when i realize myself doing it to others.  so i know not many read this. however to those who do...sorry for times when i did not listen.  forgive the pride of my heart and i beg for you to pray with me for my ears to be keen, sensitive, eager to hear!  more than anything, how i am sorry for the times that i did not listen to my Lord, my King, my Husband!  to recount my life and the times that i ignored the Truth, the WORD, of the One whose I am is sickening.  praise God that satan does not have final victory over the deceit that i once thought was Truth!  

one of my dearest friends challenged me with the question...well what causes us not to listen?  what is it that continues to seep in the history of israel and causes them to be deeply decieved on what Truth truly is?  the Lord gave me this verse in reply. james 1:21...the end of it..."in humility receive the word implanted, which is able to save your souls!"  oh my goodness the power of words. words to each other, yes, but the Holy Word of our Mighty God!  there is a reason for the analogy of a sword.  it is the Word of God that as this verse states is "able to save our souls"!  it is this Word that God calls us to LISTEN to.  how important the Word needs to become in my life constantly.  yes God revealed to me the beauty and the demand of His Word here.  but He also brought to light on how to receive it.  how to listen to it.  how to not be deafened by deceit and twisted truth.  receive it with HUMILITY!  oh the cancer of pride in my life.  it is what chokes my desire to listen.  pride is what causes me to declare my own truth and turn ear to it!  

cultivate humility within me.

kill all pride in my heart

with the penetrating Sword of Your Word

give me ears to hear

to discern

give me Your Truth alone

teach me to listen

for You alone are God

there truly is no one like You

it is You who declares Truth

satisfy my soul

AMEN!

missing

sometimes i am scared to miss people.  i have missed people before and it turned to idolatry...it turned to me not being satisfied or content in my Lord and where He placed me!  i fear feeling a lot of things because of feeling it once and it not being of God...even love. i know fear of anything but the Lord is sin.  i know that i am a child of my King and that i have been adopted so that i can cry out to Him as "Abba, Father".  His desire is for there to be no fear...only reverance for the holy and jealous God He is!  i miss people now...i love people now.  and i praise God that it is of God!  i pray that my missing or my loving would never be present without the gospel in the guts of it.  i praise God that i am content..no...full of joy and overflowing in satisfaction in what He has called me to do..whatever that may be for the moment, the hour, the day, the life!  i praise God that there is no need to fear because He has won all victory!

do not rejoice over me, oh my enemy

though once i dwelled in darkness the Lord is Light to me

do not rejoice over me

enslaved to sin and darkness

with no eyes to see

powerless to break these chains

of my wretched enemy

then comes my fearless Warrior

to conquer sin within me

the reign of sin is broken

by His Spirit I believe

do not rejoice over me

dead to sin, alive to God

a child of the King

with no more need to fear

i will only sing

that through the cross, my death has died,

sin has no power

through the rising of the Son,

my victory is won, my victory is won

do not rejoice over me, oh my enemy

though once i dwelled in darkness, the Lord is Light to me

do not rejoice over me

FOR VICTORY IS WON!

[Micah 7:8-9 and Romans]